Patience is a Virtue I Need to Learn.

Does it ever feel like you're rushing through your life to get to the next big thing? I hear myself saying "Tomorrow I will.." or "I can't wait until..." or "when I'm in older..." but rarely, rarely, do I take it a day at a time. Unfortunately, as those who know me can attest to, patience has never been a virtue of mine. I'm an impatient fool who longs for instant gratification--how do I learn to appreciate the wait?! I'm worried that one day I'll turn around and come face to face with a mirror and see myself, 30, with little more than 10 years of a rushed adulthood behind her. I'll be a successful film producer--fingers crossed!--who's misplaced her most precious commodity: time. I love my friends, my family, my life in DC, but I still feel like I'm cruising on autopilot, waiting for the signal to switch it off and begin my life. I fear an existence backed up by nothing but words--by "should'ves" and "could'ves" and other such conditionals that drip with longing and regret. How do I live in the now and not in the when? Maybe its this era, this "ME" generation, thats affected my thinking. We're so used to everything on the spot. Processes that used to take hours or minutes now take seconds, and the whole span of human knowledge is at our fingertips. It's like I'm running a race against my peers but none of us see the coffin sitting at the finish line. Why do we all feel like we're going to be left behind if we're not constantly transforming, moving forward, preparing for something? Maybe the Luddites have a point. Life was sweeter before technology complicated it.